Michelle's in the house.

I'm gonna write...
Gonna start writing...

*after 2 hours of procrastination, shower and dinner*

I'm still clueless what to write and how to start this off.
Facepalms and bang myhead softly on the wall.


It's mid of December, another 18 days more to go before 2011 ends and we shall all party like rockstar to welcome the beginning of the new year, 2012. But who knows how great would it turns out to be and definitely who could predict whether is 2012 gonna be better than this year. It is too early to be said when I can't even define whatve I gone through this year. Like Ive never really live up to myself throughout the year. Lessons learnt, mistakes made, decision struggles, &insignificant friends. One fine day, some random stranger actually walked up to my table and randomly asked if I'm Shushasha that blogs and pretty active in Twitter.


My first thought in head was I couldn't care less because I was busy preparing for my paperworks, &was struggling to finish up my lunch at the same time, but I nearly dropped my jaw when he said he's been reading and following my blog since I started blogging in my previous website. It was just really nice and sweet of him that he came up to me and said hi. I guess that really made my day, when that day also turned out to be one of my biggest lesson of life; never drive in rage.


There's this one question I always pop to people that I just met; What would do you when your closest friend of all is going to leave, for their own personal reasons/study purpose? And most of the time, I would get the answer I wanna hear from them. Some would tearup, some said they will be very happy for them, &perhaps a few would be pretty pissed &still wish them Bon Voyage pleasantly though. Looking back to those days I shared with all my close friends, acquaintances, random people that I spoke to &those that successfully made to the exit in my life, I'm glad everything that happens, happened for really appropriate reasons &I managed to move on to the next chapter in life. They said, every mistake made is another lesson learnt with a price to pay. From the bottom of my heart, I still hold on to the saying, without making mistake, I wouldn't learn, &it just wouldn't be me, today. So eventually, when you do make any mistakes in your life, till the day you're still breathing right now at this moment, don't feel bad because it happened but be glad it happened and you know that you're still breathing, better &stronger than before.

I just gotta learn this the hard way, &perhaps took a longer route, slower pace. But I'll never regret choosing this path.

Okayh, moving on to Michelle's farewell party before she's leaving to Canada &we had an awesome session, pigged out in The Social, Bangsar. I thought we were going to be late for the dinner &they would cancelled my reservation, but thank goodness to my awesome driving skills, it was raining &yet we made it there right in time before the clock strikes eight! The food is reasonably cheap &it feels like home, really comfortable in our own space, I love their ambiance and lighting, guess what? They even provide pool tables!

Fong's carbonara and it tastes really good (Y)

Aryl's Arrabiata, too spicy for my liking though.

Steak sandwich and the portion is pretty huge for Ann.

Social mezze plate; mutton, lamb grills &I love their kebab! 

Lasagna beef and chicken

ahmoiku, leaving on 19th!

Pegbabey

shot #1

Mr Muscular

Bryan and Fong

Wei Ann, came back from Perth; she drove to the dinner miraculously, Sherilyn &Jingli 

The toast, cherry poppin' in a box *insidejoke*

bellenotbell &ahmoiku

Canadian vs Australian

Group picture

After the dinner, we chilled a while inside my car before heading over to Mist and meetup w/ Fong Number 2 from my college for a Korean farewell and bumped into a few of my friends here and there. KO-ed at 5 in the morning, before mom decided to question me anything about the dinner, I headed out again before she could bombard me with her lectures. Last but not least, I'm gonna end this post with a flattering picture of us. 

Yours truly, Fong &ahmoiku

next post coming up, Tiesto fever!

Emotional tantrums

Its only 5.22 in the afternoon but my body clock is already ticking to bed. They are secretly signalling to brain asking my body to shut down asap and flipping get my ass to bed for some really good rest. This November is coming to an end again, once again I would said. Those that knows me really well, and God knows what He had put me through this year, it was really messed up but I would said, it's a pretty good exposure to what I had got through, and put me to a learning experience, that a price is infinity. As much as I would like to write, I've always  find my way to procrastination, a pretty valid reason to push all my responsibilities to other factors in life, &most of time,

 I wouldve said, "NO TIME LARH BOSS." 

Who said it's easy to lead a happy life without worries of munneh? I bet you have not even try earning your own penny, dude. I'm not about to brag about how my earnings but at least, knowing the fact that munneh doesn't grow on trees are readily good enough to shove it to your face. Recalling those moments that I had in this year, I was supposed to blog in a week time after October 17th &guess what? Something somehow sometimes just blow my minds off for the past one month, got carried away by those thoughts and now I'm back here on my feet, standing strong despite those emotional tantrums that I had, yes tantrums I called it.


For not endowed reason, I've bugged Pegbabey and Bellenotbell for almost a month because of the dwelling and bounding stage, perhaps its just in need of a normal mental clarity check. They always tell me it's easy to move on when you least realized and pour your attention into someone, it's true. However, it's also easily said than done. Aha, but certainly it'll all boils to the a point when enough means enough, till the day you'll finally realized that everything that you were up to previously is just insanely dumb, well it's always quoted love is blind; the person in love, LAGI BLIND.


Wishing for things that I could achieve in the new year's resolutions, I'd love to reach out for certain goals in life with my own abilities, of course maybe some preaching from my parents and friends, but nevertheless, I really wanna strive for my own goals (: There's this little feelings of appreciation injected into my senses &that is just gonna motivates me to work things better. Okay, time to get some sleep before heading out again tonight.

Recap of the month(s)

Karyee and yourstruly in Aryl's open house

Shot #2

The boys; Vincent, Ravin, Fong &Jingli

My new classmates, Mandapanda and Ninjayasmin

WHERE I CALL IT MY SECOND HOME NOW (Y)

Sister's birthday and my bangs 

IMMA TRANSFORM MYSELF INTO ....

PO-POKKER FACE (Lady Gaga phailed)

BUT Paulalicious has sexy thick red lips now. 

Last picture of the day, Subang road trip w/ the bunch. 

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In loving memory of Grandpa Chang (1931 - 2011), 

Despite that we don't live under one roof, 

we may have the least conversations among all the siblings 

and cousins, regardless how often you may have notice me in our family gatherings, 

the bonding moments that we probably started to have, were reduced in such a vast manner, 

that lead to such despair and regrets that one would have for that one day you'll be gone, forever. 

Yeye, you'll always and forever be my dearest, 

RIP. ♥

Some said its the end, I call it a start.

I'll write soon people, stay tuned.
I would love to see more response from the readers. xx

I trying to write I.

Life is like a Rubik's cube, trying to solve the colour and pattern in an according formulae, bur what if we don't choose that 'according' formulae and create our own, and now we called it; grasp of your own future. We'll never know when and how would we achieve success, and in midst of pursuing the future, it is a long journey down the trail, the route one least expected with unforeseen obstacles ahead.

       

          This is what I have in mind, something I learnt and I would love to share with all the souls in the world - feeling as  though it would practically helps to whoever reading this piece feeling low and down, I'm just around to put a smile to your face.

So that's it. This is just what she is made of. Simple, easy-going, kind, calm, stable, dependent and all positive vibes. You named it and yes, the answer will be. This is just going to be a modest description about her because behind all these words, you can't even find the right word to describe her, or at least to put her into such phrase. As for now, whenever her mood swings strikes, there's no other ways to catch hold of her attention, especially if she's not in the right mood to talk.

         Silence is the only last thing she appreciates from others. I choose not to reveal her that much because she always believes what people gets to know its just merely what they see a person from the outside, it's just all about external beauty and appearance. To this tiny little soul, what she bothers much in her heart is the transformation of a person as they outgrow to multiple factors. She's not glad to tell the world that she grieved over a few issues that once meant the most in life, but they chose to let her down, which she finally seen all these beneath the fake masks that everyone tries so hard to hide, but it'll never be able to conceal when it is a matter of heart. Dwelling in the past doesn't give you any opportunities to move further but holding you back.

         However, she could be one of the most intriguing person but also typical female that you wouldn't wish to meet. I do come across with such a scene; she can tell stories all night without you feeling bored and yet you can listen to her attentively as she could provoke your darkest secret without any intentions, perhaps she's a stimulator in human form. That's clearly just a joke. It would be good if she could finally make use of herself in helping others to overcome their darkest fear, which I really doubt so.

         Back into business, I'm going to spill half of the bowl about her, something she's trying to hide from everyone else, her friends, her parents, and even her own self. She has this obsession with her skin. What one would do is to pamper their skin with all sorts of home remedies just to make their skin glow and some tiny bit of love by spending some time (inadequate time) in the bathrooms for more scrubs and massages. Now when you're reading this, she's totally opposite of what you think she is. I'm dead serious here. She doesn't shower until it's much needed, and she totally doesn't behave like one, she doesn't know what a body scrub for till she walks into the Dermatologica and got a consultation from a dermatologist. That explains her current obsession with her skin.

         If you want to know anything or something unique about her, try popping up that question to her and she'll just look at you and giggles. I would be glad to repeat, she'll start off with her loud giggles and then, she's said, "Why am I unique? Because unique is me." She's that hyper that she would really laugh and burst in uncontrollably tears flowing from the corner of her eyes. I can see that she's happy receiving such compliment for the first time when she's sixteen. The conversation still replays vividly in her head. I am not going to elaborate much on her personal matters, but this girl has a really long trip back to her memory lane.

         Her giggles.

         That's the only thing that could brighten up any gloomy days and beat your blues away. This is out of nowhere, but honestly, if only I could read some spells and shrink her size, she will be like the tiniest thing ever like Thumbelina. This is just pun-intended and I feel that her giggles are a awakening call to all that laughters bring everyone together regardless your nationality, skin colour and the language you spoke. It's good indeed that she tries so hard to erase all negative vibes in her and her loved ones, for at least keep them far away from them and hoping for a better tomorrow, but as good as it sounds, she forgotten about her little devil inside her.

          She party, she drinks, she shouts, she hyped, but those were all the days she doesn't wish to recall not a single piece of them. Pushing off the corrupted sheets in life to the back of her mind is just something she wish to invent, at least a vaccine to repent for all the sin she had done for the past 19 years of life. She's young but she knows that it's not going to be a bed of roses in times to come. As she grows older, she learns how society works and that's when she clearly understands that effort has a price to pay. And it's your judgements that leads to the possibilities far beyond your expectations. Not going to recycle the quote, "Expectation leads to disappointment" but having least expectations means lowering possibilities. So which one would you prefer?


Last but not least, I'm sure you're pretty clear who was I talking about all these while, thankyou for spending your time here today. :D

P.S : And if you're not, spend your time reading the second time and find out. I'm not telling you. kbai.




Note : This is not done for ads or any other purposes, simply meant for my assessment and Mr. Nick's request. And some of the details and relevant information are merely made up to provoke sensation.

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Hello mellow people.

This smells like a pretty rotten blog 

Quoted by yours truly. Heh, I have to apologise to all from the very bottom of my heart, it's been an almost few months I've been pretty laid back and sadly, detached from this entire blogsphere. Hiding at one petty corner, out of the gloomy deceitful social globe, it comes to the point I understand all used, bruised and fuckedupdried me wouldn't wanna stay static and dwell in the past anymore. Had countless of times trying to stay outve the drama everyone wanna be involved, learning how hard not to be bothered about their nasty comments &judgments, and how honesty plays a role in a friendship. Thankyou for making this 2010 worthwhile something I learnt, it's been a whole long month for heartbroken-fearlesspainguts-to-incrediblehulk-bouncefreepain.

UNICORN?

How well practically anyone defines unicorn? It's just the skinnier, whiter, better looking version of a hippo, bet no one could agree more to this. I'm pretty sure, anyone who watched Strangers again or even read their xanga, most prolly you could understand their terms of unicorn. It's pretty skeptical that anyone here reading this post right now eventually met your self-proclaimed-unicorn. When other have their own says on this, I personally have my own novel about this.

I wouldn't have said that I'd been through the ocean so deep, the forest so thick, the mountains high up, but definitely the bits from these &that that mould me into the form today. I've learn that nothing comes w/o a little effort, some thoughts in mind &at least some gestures and actions to be taken.


In less than what others conclude about me, those that knows me the least have more to talk about me, which leaves heaps of incredulous thoughts on how did they managed to have so many things to talk regarding someone that you've not spoken to before? Perhaps, that's just how life goes, w/ some spices &herbs from their conversation that makes days more interesting &dramatic, at certain times.


For my self-fulfilling thoughts, I have liking for scents since young, despite a really sensitive nose I've - I sniff a lots. ( I do sniff my own stuffs, very much) Yet, I still believe everyone has their own personal brand of scent, not in such a way of BRAND's brand, like Dior, Calvin Klein but just your own personal label of the scent. I recalled those days when I was young, I used to creep into my 'rents room and sniff them when they are soundly asleep.
And till the day you finally lose the scent you longing to sniff, they sealed in your mind. Anything that resemblances of the scent reminds you of the person, a lot.

Just some personal thought about my unicorn. Take note of what happened in 3 months back ;D

Photo rolls

 Ahmoiku in Curve, thankyou for the Chatime delivery.

 ahmoiku and her boyfriend, weiyang. 

 Sushi zanmai, I'm so sick of Japanese food like seriously honestly. 

 Cindy's birthday 

This is the fathers' day cake surprise, sister ruined it. :X

 Kenny's first visit to the female washroom.

(Okay, I lied, not his first!)

 I started learning photography this semester. 

First photoshoot with my nephew, Jeremy. 

Last but not least, stay tune for the upcoming post. xx

eccentrically bold, no?

Finals are over, and upcoming Year 2 is definitely a different definition for college. Ironically, expressing my thoughts and emotions in blog gave me a whole new clarity of who Ive been, what was I upto &contrast to that, I never wanna look back to the past of whom I longing to be.

The shyts of what I gone through was beyond the expectations everyone wouldve perceived &had, it'd been quite a several times I was questioned, it was a bizarre thought I never learnt the difference I was made into, but expect the least unexpected is always a catastrophe. 

Practically, anything that stumbled upon my mind at this hour, couldn't be the right thing stirring up my thoughts, as well as messing w/ my emotions, giving a free-ride of roller coaster, but heck who cares? It definitely not the right time to be encountering these mood swings &goosebumps considering the outcomes and consequences of the-whatifs &whatsnot. 

Give me an answer, and I would give it a shot. 

Despite the apocalypse days I had, look at the bright side. 

Life goes on &thank God for placing wonderful people in my life &brighten my days. *inserts names*

I tell you right, when I've having dilemma of whatudu in life, you should actually sort me outve the list to ask for advices, choices, opinions, etc. Feeling so entirely cranky during the day &the most annoying human bugging your ears off your head &literally, screaming for earplugs and slapping me till I shutup. (And yes, I was that loud when I hyped)

I'd had tried keeping quiet &still, but it's just not me if I do have millions of thoughts running in my mind. I demand for an answer, at least whats not a question in head. I should head to be soon &long post ahead on birthdays parties & trip. 

I'll post a very well-behaved picture of my sister, testing out my new toy :P 

Say harlow to my new baby, Shasta. 

February is in love

Harro.

It's been quite a long absence since my previous post, blame the missing mojo that I used to have when my passion for blogging is growing fonder day by day, lesser by then after more assignments pouring in. I'll promise to keep this alive, ASAP. As for now, it's Valentine people. 

I do hope you guys have a beautiful loving Monday; without the blues and cramps. Semester 3 starts in few hours time. As for now, to those who knows me well enough, I'll straight things up w/o any hesitations. Party up people, pop a cherry and spread the love (Put on your HORN-eh horns tonight too!)