It's been so long since I last blog about anything. To be precise, I have not actually consider writing or listing down any of my thoughts until I am finally done with my finals, like one week ago. Eh no. It was just few days back, 4 days ago since the cocks are going to sing their cuckoo soon. Pun-intended by the way, if you do get my lameness. *winks.
How have everyone been so far, it's the beginning of August and almost reaching quarter of the year left, before we going to another chapter, different year ahead, different stories, other shyts happen and cool memories created. I remembered once, someone wise told me - Actually, everyone moves forward, and those we really choose to stay stationary at one point of time, because they refused to or either, they are making excuses to proceed and accept what's going to happen next and the tomorrows. Having second thoughts about what she had thrown to me in my face, it gives me a shivers considering I'm already 20 this year and the TWO is slowly going to affect me in most ways, my family, studies, friends and career. Is this really where I want to go or just stay with whatever I have right now, to go with the flow or not?
See, every single time when I have my semester break or when I'm too free (nothing to do, no work loads and assignments) I tend to over think &over analyse every single details, like bits of every happenings and how did the consequences affect me in times to come, what about my life, my family and friends, the people I care and all? Would they actually judge me in the different way based on my own decisions and actions that I have took? Do all these worth the risk and could I actually bear with the consequences I'm about to face later on?
One whole paragraph, being paranoid. Oh fuck, no good.
But look, the grass is always greener on the other side. I feel so contented and once again, learning and picking up lessons in life - like a happy child listening to stories from those grandma and grandpa. You know why, most of my girlfriends are actually settling down and they finally found their soul mate. Eh, I'm not too sure if their THE one, happens to be REALLY soul mate or their partner in years to come, if they are planning to tie a knot at the end of this year, IF only but at least I'm truly happy for them. *throw blessings at these lovebirds*
I'm very generous with blessings okay, as long as you happy, my happiness content will be doubled. I actually thought of like writing one whole long post about the birthday dinner I just attended just now, but I think I should hit the sack now, then I will have a legit reason for myself to write about the dinner the next day. When is the next day? No words and promises on that. wtf, I have always been giving myself excuses to procrastinate which what I'm supposed to do, but keep delayed or postponing them. That's really bad, imagine one day if my own child wants me to buy her diapers but I'm too lazy to get outve my house. I probably give her banana leaf and asked her to use it.
