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Sorry for neglecting my blog really long. Could've just spend some time in front of the computer instead of hooking up with more soap operas. TVB dramas are just too addictive. Nothing much recently, life has always been fuckin' hectic and dull to me, as usual which I could hardly find an amazing description for it.


Saturday was hell boring today, expected though the school would be pretty empty and shorter queues in assembly ground &canteen too! ♥ Fruits and more fruits made my day, while Elaine eniale & ahmoiku are having a dilemma today. They even wondering should they or should they not spilling out the truth that weve been hiding from everyone all this one? Would that make any difference or changes in between them or was that going bring them together with just some words? We certainly hope for the positive changes! :)


Sad thing, we are eventually having a difficult time in class. Shall talk about this some other time, lets' just focus back into one main topic. Oh ya, Ive not mention it yet here, before and certainly not my sense of blogging to write about my family. Anyway, shall this reach your ears &eyes not, I really hope for your forgiveness & pray for every goodness you need& want. I knew you have been really sick of my persuasion in every fetish I longed. Immature brat, called me that & I couldve never bother to admit till the one you fell really ill right before my eyes. Being such a ungrateful child, it has never come across my mind, the only pillar of strength whenever I fucking faced any harm &evil. When I said he did, he really meant it with all his heart, protected his only teenage daughter, struggled to get her piercings done, and nearly got the family involved in an accident in the midday - raining cats and dogs. Vain & demanding traits in the past has never been this obvious in my dictionary, perhaps I aged a little too much nowadays & yet to discover more how obnoxious I was to my own family, and the mighty man. He's all I could depend on, emotionally & physically. I really felt his words, his pain when I babbled those hurtful words to him whenever I flashed back now and then - how that tearful sight turned into another unpleasant memory in his early-fifties.


It was really a month of strange events, bizarre and rather frightening. Before I could stop & think the next plan, I can't help myself from slipping into a pot of problems. There's this fucktard in school messing with me, and my fuckin' marks are decreasing rapidly. This dude, I shall not say he has no sense of responsibility because I felt he certainly is doing his job, but to no avail, he should have bloody trying to achieve his quota by just randomly picking on people - smaller size than him & fucking copied their names down. Do you have some bloody sense of logical where you should have eventually enlarge your fuckin' sepet eyes & see how bloody high up have I pinned up my fringe? Or shall I give you a hand if you need that so badly?


I just cant understand how did my high school days turned traumatic when I tuned into seventeen, it's just a blink of eye. I could still remember how mighty and huge the school was to me when I was a junior in school. The peeps were so tall and humongous when they walked pass me, felt as if I'm one of the seven dwarfs in Snow White's cottage. (Yes, I live in my very own fairytale) Plus, I would be totally clueless to wander aimlessly and roam around the school compound when that school is at least 3 times bigger than my previous school. I loathe the feeling of being block headed in this totally unfamiliar surrounding.


Not only I felt really belittled, everyone seems to be at the their top of the world, & therefore excluded this tiny one from every outing list. FYI, I miss those days in middle school, a lots!





23/08/09


Supposed to attend some sort of creepy talk with mom in but screwed up when none of us bothered to wake one another in the morning. AHAKS, mom said it's fine not attending and went out for breakfast instead.

Healthy meal

& I couldn't be vainer than before, camwhored a little, sulked with my parent's behavior & a Methuselah, he was fucking rude and big time snob. He spat right in front of my eyes and gave me the stare of a perverted psycho. Screw you, spoil my beautiful morning! Have some sense in mind, sicko. If you do read my blog, please be sure you don't park your car anywhere nearby I stood. OOPS





Pardon me for being a tad overboard on camwhoring :D

Weee, it's school holidays again, the final before my big day. Shall talk more some other day.
Need to run, xoxo!

Love is like a Rubix Cube, there are countless numbers of wrong twists and turns, but when you get it right, it looks perfect no matter what way you look at it.

Big and long vs hornchy

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've settled down for my trials coming up, weather had been a really bad stifling one.
Updates, here we go!





03/08/09




Freaking Monday gotten the glitz of the entire week. Something really bad happened in the morning & have no idea how did that affect my mood for the whole day. In another hand, the newly-appointed juniors were finally showing their true colours, after a graceful period of being the bad asses. Honestly, most of them misused their role. Let's just take this for an example, there's this female prefect had massive grudges towards the peeps in our class, & same goes to us. Neither one of us is in good terms with her, because she's just simply a wannabeh. Just so the other day, she shouted at us in front of everyone after she got her post. Hello, everyone knew what are you up to, lady. Plus point, the prefectorial board this year was in a big mess. The nice responsible ones are getting the lower post, while those unreliable or shall I call them irrelevant ones got their way high up. Wtf, I'm just so not gonna agree with this. Oh yes, part of this spoiled my mood for the day too!


Skinny Ysababy fetched me to tuition today. *big wet eyes* Well, it's not the first time but still I'm so touched you made an effort to pick me up that day. I didn't wanna get too mushy here, but thanks babe. Biology was kinda boring that day with the lists of chromosomes & someone nearly fell asleep. Hah! You should thank me for keeping you awake. Physics tuition was a good time(at least for my day), because Elaine eniale & I practically chattered throughout the class. Having these dirty talks & evil plans for someone's birthday. (Oh, excluded th-dirty talks for the birthday.)
Dad has been really ill.





05/08/09


Something big happened to ahmoiku & she's really happy for that. Why heh? Because she simply loves the sight of it, right mate? Finally she stands the chance after a long period of time but everything does paid off really well. Elaine eniale finally getting her certificates done when those sixth formers-in-charge typed her identity card number wrongly. Coincidently, her sister's one too! Perhaps, they're playing a prank on you. After school, supposedly teman Eugene to meet birthday girl in her shop. Well, I'm sorry Mei Shen. If you read this here, I'm really sorry for not joining you guys because I'm simply afraid I couldn't catch up with my transport in time, I'm sure you did have a great time in other ways.



Happy belated Smexy-17 manja Mei Shen!
I hope you did have a big time the other day!


We reconsidered & changed the plans at the very last minute, went to Elaine eniale's crib for some chill out sessions instead, have been like the typical routine in every week. Ahah, apart from that, we walked out to get some food & desserts. Her pale brown dog has been really naughty that day, that horneh-jantan.




Reached home in time, dad went to hospital for checkup. So basically was napping till evening & sister came home from tuition. Mom was with dad and left us with some dishes for dinner. Reports are not out yet, and had a family movie, The Grudge. Its fucking creepy larh. Ironically, I expected that to be less creepy but more disgusting. Most of the scary movies directed by Westerners include blood and flesh, but this one turned out to be more Ju-On like. Long black hair flowed down the floor, big wet red eyes, distorted mouth & big nostrils are often the creepy images in the movie possessed, but blahh.. I freaked out when the creature opened its mouth, FML.

Edit : I just found out The Grudge is the replay of Ju-On. Wtf





06/08/09


More peeps in school are wearing masks nowadays. Ain't that creepy? Supposed to get some pills from the clinic with mom because I passed out easily in this few days, but dozed off after taking the flu medication, sorry mom.




Went Chemistry class & bumped into Elaine eniale on the way to centre. Omar and Shermaine giggled in class, having their jolly time talking behind, & teacher proceeded his lessons really fast, which Elaine eniale and I could not even catch up with his pace. Night class was uber unpleasant. All credit shall goes to Kah Wai, th-one with bad communication skills, failed to signal me there's a fugly bug on my sleeve & screamed in the class. It happened in a blink of eye, he touched my arm with an evil grin on his face while I tilted my head to his direction, FUCK! That fugly disgusting crawling creature was few cms away from my face and it's not going away. He shrugged it off and landed on my seat. Smart one, and nobody willingly offer to lend a helping hand. Anyhow, thanks John! Dad's condition worsen.




07/08/09


One word, bored to the max. Was damn tired and exhausted that morning, due to the late sleep I supposed, hung on the phone with Kray last night & koed at 1am. Wanted to skip school so badly but my merit marks are decreasing so rapidly, screw that lousy system. Chemistry in class was tad interesting, at least I'm not yawning in her class & we were late for class for History. Basically, we went down for recess late today ; Ahmoiku & Elaine eniale were taking their sweet time finishing up their meal, precisely Ahmoiku.


School ended finally, say hello weekends. Hung out in the foyer a little while, it transformed into a total Chinese district. Honestly, the kids there were shouting at the top of their lungs, Chinese foul languages, unsightly hand signs and they doesn't seem to be bothered of everyone around them. It's the school for heaven sake, leave those etiquette for mamak scenes & be considerate enough to maintain some mannerism in yourself, when you're in a SCHOOL.




We could hardly stand anymore the temperature & surroundings, we proceeded to the wakaf, babbled and we nearly cried our lungs out, chatting away the experience we gonna gain if we get to bring them together. We really wish that it would come true for what you wanna have, mate & we'll make it possible, trust meh.





08/08/09

Just so I realised it's 08 August heh! Olympic 2008 fell on the same day and it just so reminded me how badly I aged. Ugh, today was kinda hunky-dory. Parents are being nice & went on a search for a suitable driving institute for meh, after dropping sister in tuition. The rest were merely staying at home, checking out my mails, getting some sleep, and exploring more blogs. Glad to be at home though, the recent feedbacks on haze are getting way hyped and I could barely see Twin Tower anymore from the highways, outside of my house. Home sweet home, on the bright side - I'm least exposed to deadly flu virus and hazardous contaminated air.




In the top my to-do list, I'd yet to complete all my karangans and supposed to submit them before the trials, but clearly the laziness had engulfed me once again. FML, there's so many to be done; completing Additional Mathematics' exercise, removing my nail polish, doing the laundry, getting a hair treatment, visiting the cinema. Plenty of works to do, but only little time I could accommodate for all of them. (Stop being a windler, screw it!)




Hell yea, dad got me some of the unusual bananas, fucking thick and long. For the typical purpose, aids for my never-ending constipation business, it taste awfully bitter. Now I started to wonder, are those bananas for real? *shrugs* My daily schedules turned haywire when mom made a big fuss of my serious malady, for not having any bowel movements for two weeks. She made me consulting a doctor about my deep shyt anus-malfunctioned & got laxatives, plus those Chinese herbal bitter drinks. FML, mom even threaten sending me to the hospital if my condition persists. Wtf, it's not like larh I'm stopping the excreting process right? Argh... Enough of shit. Lets move on.

:D look what Ive found

The good old jolly time Ive with mates, some baking session in ahmoiku's crib last week. It was awesome how things worked between us & those giggled moments we had. Let's bake again someday! I've changed my boring layout, cheers! ;D





xoxo,

it's sure as the floor 'neath my toes
and somehow not surprised
that i was superimposed
somehow in this life