Plentiful; and plenty

Sigh.

And this is probably the most recently used reaction I gave to my friends when they asked me to go out during weekends - the saddest line I ever said, all fully slotted with other tasks in my schedule. Everyone around me and my family is getting married. Of course, I should be happy for the newly-wed couple and throw them all the best wishes quotes I have learnt in Chinese and English, they have my fair share of bliss and blessings, yet I hardly utter any smile since then I started working on the projects. I swear to God and oh my tien, the amount of work and responsibility dedicated for this semester is so overwhelming to the extent, I'm losing PLENTY of sleep, I'm binging on PLENTY of food, I skip PLENTY of my workout regime, I'm missing out in PLENTY of gathering this couple of weeks and the list goes on; I'm just gonna rant my liver out. The doctor prescribed a heavier dosage for my gastritis due to the excessive stress hormones this semester, I couldn't even think of any other ways to channel out my anger and rage, it's engulfing me inside - painstakingly bitter tasting my own fear.

As far as things are proceeding all well at their own pace, this slowly traces the path towards the self; the younger Shu Ting - two years ago, stepping fresh into this enormous circle of new faces and cliques of people that we deemed friends back then and probably still friends or better known as acquaintances. Though I've always said, "Haiyoyo, I don't really care. Really, not an issue if you're not talking to me, and I don't actually give a damn," but I actually give these people some flying fucks when I still hear from them - so I still do care about them afterall. (I blame my female's hormones)

I just can't, anymore.

For Ashwin and Alex.

It's like 5 minutes before the clock strikes twelve again. Usually, I'll be either snoozing soundly in my crib, one year ago, I was partying my life away, contaminating my lungs and my liver were pretty intoxicated during that stage in life, and for now, I'm so contented in life, staying in my sick bed reading just a good book and having a plenty of rest that my body well-deserved at this time of the week. I went shower, and it reminds me so much of the memory lane that tapped my back this evening watching a few series on the tv when I fell on-and-off asleep on my couch.


I have been taking so many medicine lately, countless times I actually made a few trips to different doctors in just a week. Knowing that lately many of my friends turned 21, and my presence there would probably make a slight difference - I felt so bad, SO SO BAD inside me, like really bad, I couldn't utter how depressed that I can't be there to sing you guys a birthday song, but I really wish you both a memorable 21st. Please claim your birthday lunch/dinner with me soon.


HAPPY 21st-BIRTHDAY, BOTH A'S (ASHWIN AND ALEX)

Alex . Ashwin . Nicole
(Grabbed something from Facebook  \(0_0)/ )

Happy birthday, Ashwin Asokan! You've always been a wonderful and great guy friend to me, each and everytime. I know what got us closer and who brought us together at the beginning. I'm so thankful and can't ask for more, we are still close buddies even after things changed, and that eventually strengthen our friendship; such irony!


Happy birthday, Alex Kwok! I'm so sorry that I gave you the thought that I clicked 'attending' to your 21ST YOLO HOTEL PARTY when cx mentioned to me about your birthday celebration. It's like a must every year to attend Alex's birthday dinner together and this year, regretfully for not being able to attend and at such last minute notice. You know you have been a really nice friend to me, all these while which words can't even describe more of what we both feel.


That's practically how bad I really felt inside staying in bed, but I'll be drafting a thought of mind that I'm going to write about, yayyers. I can't wait and I should catch some sleep again, time for my meds.


Birthday boys, and guys, please stay safe and have a blessed birthday! Loves