a piece of mind

It's almost midnight & almost close to saying bye to Saturday. By the time I finished up with this post, I think its already 2 in the morning. Hello Sunday in advance. wtf


I knew this might be nothing, but mean hell a loads to me, I just took a bath when the clock nearly strikes twelve. This is the very first time I tried it, & received naggings from dad when stepped out from the bathroom. Damn, saying you'll get cramps in your sleep later, all sorts of craps which I don't take it as an advice but a piece of bullcrap. Yes, I'm having a deep issue with him these days. Skipped that part, wish I can turn a deaf ear to these lectures.


Had not been feeling euphoria for the past few weeks, due to the unsupportive parents, heavy piles of paperworks, torn friendship and the sickness engulfed me recently. Putting my fingers crossed, hoping God will send me a guardian angel reducing my burdens in terms of school assignments, getting rid of the sickness, persuading my parents to be more encouraging. Or maybe a nice genie to grant all my wishes and eject those unnecessary tension.
This sounds so fantasy-like?


In every part of girl's fantasy story, couldn't resist to wish for a knight in shining armour, riding a white horse across the forest rescuing the princess trapped in the holy-so-tall-tower. Always have a dream that I'd be the princess, waiting for the perfect guy to soar and take me away from all these so-called miseries. Maybe I'm just too imaginative till I met him. I thought he's the perfect one that has ever walked into my life. God has been so nice sending him to me. He's all every girl could asked for ;

• Heights. He's tall enough for an Asian but way too skinny for his heights though.
• Broad shoulders. Thats what attracted to him so much, that he has a really nice broad shoulders to lean on whenever I feel feeble.
  
• Thick eyebrows. It's an asset when guys have really thick and well groomed brows. Guys with thick groomed brows are more appealing.
  
• Sense of humour. He's funneh in times & racking those lame jokes, can't resist not to laugh whenever I'm with him because he tends to put a smile on his face every single day which melts my heart.
• Tenderness. Caring, gentle, compassionate & being a very considerate boyfriend in times simply couldn't have get you falling out of love.

However, I've been a really unappreciative bytch, took things for granted and totally being a self-ignorance slut, unaware that you've been doing so much for me but had not been giving in much in this relationship. It takes two to make a relationship, but I've not putting enough of effort to keep this works. When the sparks started to fade, I felt so insecure & created chaos, heated up arguments then, cooled down when we were both in tears. Honestly, I'd been expecting this relationship to last longer than what I've expected, it came to an end that soon, which I didn't realized it was all my mistakes. Too bad, it's too late to turn back the time, feelings were no longer the same.


Read the previous entries in my old blog reminds me of how we've been through the thick and thin in each and every tough situation, & you've never walk away from me although how badly I had treated you. Yelling and screaming those harsh hurtful words in those days have been something I regretted the most. Had never come across my big empty mind before blurting these words at you yet, you forgave me and cheer me up ignoring how bad things could happened when I'm on fire. Bursting in tears when reminds me of the time you were still waiting for me past the school lessons.


The days we spent time together in malls, and memorable moments we had in class. These simply mean more than anything else that God had gave me. Losing you in life had happened, what matters is I had you once. Sharing thoughts with you have never been easy ever since we came clear to each other, confronted in that really awkward situation. It's a tough one as I still see you in every reflection I come across, the pathways we've been through and every single detail you'd mentioned to me before. Was it really that sickening that I've got way too into this high-school relationship?


Sheeesh, it takes time to outgrow a broken relationship, especially when you have really deep thoughts for that person. Or maybe it's just the feeling of 'it's still there and never wanna take a step ahead. We've to move on with life, relationship doesn't go smooth as it may seems from third person's point of view. It certainly takes up loads of courage and guts to get into a relationship & it takes up more when you need to get out from one.


I couldn't be bothered to think of more at this hour.




xxx

All in one

Happy Sexy Tujuh Belas, Sue San!

Things have never been easy between us, I hope we could pull this through. Still remember you sat in front of me when we were in Secondary One, the tall and slim figure that hangs a really sweet smile everyday. The way we came across with each other was a peculiar one, never expected that it would be a twist of fate & how we ended up as friends now, girl.

Happy Belated Birthday 22nd April babe :)

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Managed to pull through the exam week & greet hello to choir competition week in about 5 days more. This means more practices or maybe not? Gah, hope not *fingers crossed*
Apart from that, means two weeks more to mid year papers & a big leap nearer to SPM. Whadturf, not managed to start any single revision on any subjects yet & SPM sounds so near already. This could really be so sickening as I predicted I would fall really sick after this choir competition because I been feeling unwell lately especially with this killing weather, simply means I need to sit mid year papers despite feeling nausea.

Anyway, I owe some of them the Kepong's IR pictures.

Hee Teck & the main role in the drama.
(She's muscular? Opps, he* )

watched Fast and Furious 4 finally. Everyone has been saying about that movie, but I'm totally clueless till I watched it. Seriously, I bet you will like it if you're a big fan of car engines and thrills.



Overall, the casts are really fantastic :) Cool cars, good guys, high tech, and hawt chicks.
Simply adore his muscles. *drools*

He's hawt x)

But he's hotter :)

Gosh, need to finish up the additional mathematics assignment in three weeks time. Sheeesh. I hope this would be an easy task, with the help of those add-maths pro in class xD

I'm counting on you guys :D

This is my school's garden :S
*random stares*

I have a huge feeling I'm going to have diarrhoea soon. Damn, I'm feeling sleepy now.

Gotta go,
Ciao people!
xo


tuning in : Insomnia by Craig David

Will my first love be true and real

How much I wish for a vampire boyf



to bring me away from all these misery

:(

Sorry, was too emotional lately that I feel it's time to give in an emotional post.
The site will regain its normality soon. =/


So no worries, peeps.

Fark off, bytch emo.



tuning in : Am I ready for love - Taylor Swift

Do you know what it’s like to feel so in the dark

Hello pretties. It feels good to keep in touch with my readers though.

I'm feeling odd lately, really odd.
Never seems it will get any better soon.
Pokerface?



Mum mum mum mah
Mum mum mum mah

I wanna hold em' like they do in Texas Plays
Fold em' let em' hit me raise it baby stay with me (I love it)
Luck and intuition play the cards with Spades to start
And after he's been hooked I'll play the one that's on his heart

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh,
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

I wanna roll with him a hard pair we will be
A little gambling is fun when you're with me (I love it)
Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun
And baby when it's love if it's not rough it isn't fun, fun
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh,
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

I won't tell you that I love you
Kiss or hug you
Cause I'm bluffin' with my muffin
I'm not lying I'm just stunnin' with my love-glue-gunning
Just like a chick in the casino
Take your bank before I pay you out
I promise this, promise this
Check this hand cause I'm marvelous

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

Feeding a hungry child?

Woah, like finally I get to update my really abandoned site. Anyhow, this week was quite an irksome and slow, things were slowing down for some unknown reasons & it seems that it would be quite a depressed month for all the mates in 5S. Depression was like a spreading influenza in class, passing from one to another. Especially when teacher doesn't attend our class, it will be a gloomy day for most of us, filled with emoness and hanging sad depressed faces.

Blah, wonder when is this coming to an end?

Oops, skip my expression on the mirror.
*check out my silly grin*

tuning in : Pokerface

I hate my hair :(

Exams phobia

Its exam week again next week.
Got to run!

Kthxbye
♥ shu

tuning in : Lemon tree

You're everything I need and more

Ish, feeling so random, I decided to talk again. Still in hesitation whether to attend this Saturday's event not?

Anyone willing to be my date?
*laughs*

Anyway, I'm feeling paranoid about my weights and body lately. It's time to shed off some weights and work more, eat less.

I would just like to share my very own opinion in eating habits. Well, it said that one should consume smaller proportions but frequent intake of meals. To me, in my point of view, its true. Consuming larger proportion of meal for breakfast could eventually supply you energy for the rest of your day, and of course get some light refreshments in between your breaks. Getting sufficient of food in the early morning could also put you into a brighter morning. Not only boosting metabolism

Apart from that, chew your food before you swallow them. The action of chewing mechanically breaks down very large aggregates of food molecules into smaller particles. This results in the food having increased surface area, an important contributing factor to good digestion. According to university studies, chewing stimulates your endocrine system, keeping your hormones in balance for a younger, happier looking you. In particular, the parotid glands just under your cheekbones release a cell-rejuvenating substance. I'm sure they would bottle it if they could, but they can't. So chew for youth instead.

& what's the use of beauty without the brains? The more you chew, the more oxygen is sent to the brain. So take your time and give your meal a thorough munching if you want to score well in those exams.

Conclusion :
Eat with your heart, not for the time :)

I came across with this, wondering how true is this?

Circumcision 'reduces HIV risk'

Circumcision can reduce the rate of HIV infections among heterosexual men by around 60%, a study suggests.

The South African study, reported in Public Library of Science Medicine, found it had a protective effect for some of the 3,280 young men involved.

Circumcision is thought to help protect against HIV because cells under the foreskin are vulnerable to the virus.

UK experts warned some circumcised men in the study still became infected and condoms offered the best protection.

HIV infection rates are lower among groups in Africa who practise circumcision, but it was not known if this was due to cultural differences.

When the foreskin is removed, the skin on the head of the penis becomes less sensitive and so less likely to bleed, thereby reducing the risk of infection.

Studies in Uganda and in Kenya are also investigating the link.

It's Monday tomorrow.
Hello Monday?




tuning in : Halo by Beyonce

Love me, love my dog

I felt so bad for abandoning my blog for such a long period. I'm sorry kay?

Oh well, nothing much I would talk about this entire week because life is going so slow and boring these days! Study, eat, sleep - Basically, the typical routine of a student-wannabe-adult. What else could I ask for?

Sheeesh, exclude the part I'm feeling fat though, still thinking of whether what should I be aiming at & the role of being the eldest child in the family. Nevertheless, parents never failed to criticize in whatever hell you're doing.

"Tidy up your bedroom and fold your blanket, Shu Ting!"

"Can't you see your sister is busy now? Pick up the call!"

"Why are you sitting in front of the computer? How many days more till SPM?

*slaps head with a big fat pillow*


This is my life, can't escaped from part of this soap opera. Although this never-ending-lectures are pretty annoying in times, I can still sense the love in every speech they delivered.

Hearts you Mommy :)

Oh, a slight update I remembered. Yesterday was a schooling day. Plus, it's a Saturday. I expected that many students in class will not be attending school however, I'm wrong. In fact, quite a number of students turned up and had the longest assembly in this entire whole week. Took up the first three periods and skipped Rahimi's class.

Weeeee, the main attraction was the Finals of the School King and Queen I guess. Something spectacular compared to the typical boring fashion show held every year. It was pretty entertaining afterall, with different peculiar costumes, coming up with weird quotes & funneh answers. The finalist were all the Fifth Formers - Hao Yan from our class got into the top 5 finalists for girl category :) Proud of her, she wore a Spanish costume that day, graciously. The finalists are all dressed in various forms - Egyptian, Mexican Cowboy, Spanish, China Scholar. Traditional Japanese, and the Red Fruitella. (Sorry, I'd forgotten what's your costume. I remember bright red with fruits. )

Peektures update :

The contestants for the School King and Queen

Skinny Afiq and Rebel Omar

Had lunch with Ernest on Monday before tuition
Check out the size of his meal.

Salad. Don't judge because it looks awful.

Without tomatoes.

Random xD

Vain Michelle and Lick-ey Kahyee?

Till here then people. I want to say more.
Save it for the next post
Toodles.


I hate this feeling.
Fats-paranoid




tuning in : Just Dance

you can count on me for life

GOSH, I'd just finished watching a short movie in the TV reviews about ghosts.

Do you believe in it?
Encounters?

*goosebumps crawling at the back of my spine*

It's just paranormal and something that is not scientifically proven yet, but I'm pretty sure we're notified of their presence.
*slaps head*

I have not shower, right?
BLAH, I need to go, before I feel something eerie.

Oops, I'll talk more tomorrow.
toodles :)

that's when I love you

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Sixteen

I'd been through sweet sixteen. At thirteen I was diagnosed with insomnia. The black rings under my eyes caught everybody's attention except my mother's. She never looked at me ever since that day. My insomnia never deterred me. I was still a bright student, supposed.

I thought I was moving on.

Was sweet sixteen.
I was fourteen when my friends started to make fun of my skin colour. They said I was too pale and was called Snow White. I came home complaining to my mother yet she turned her back on me and asked me to leave her room. I ran to my room and looked into the mirrow. I am beautiful, I'd repeated numerously to myself.

I was lying to myself.

I am sweet sixteen. I just blew imaginary candles, ate a blueberry cake I bought for myself from the school canteen. My friends surrounded me and sang the sweetest melody of all - a birthday song. It was the happiest time of my life and how much I hope that the seconds will just remained ticking at the same spot. Suddenly, I could feel salty, thick liquid flowing from my mouth. Blood. Was rushed to the hospital.

Blood?

Now, I am sitting in front of the doctor trying to figure things out. Mother never told me that I'd lacked of white blood cells. She never warned me about today nor explains anything about leukaemia. The lack of white blood cells explained why I am so pale all this while. My parents do not want to be responsible for my death.

"Let me sleep."

Last words in mind before I looked at the light for the last time with tears in my eyes.



P.S : It's just part of the lines in this really touching story I'd read from a novel. I can't help myself but to share this with everyone. Go ahead and enjoy the flow


xo

Does memory matter at all to who we are?

I still think of you, a loads

what it may seems

I've not changed

p.s : I regretted out the hell of me for not having any pictures with you ):



tuning in : Bless the broken road - Rascal Flatts

I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh every day of my life

Good afternoon people.

As there's bunch of requests from my kakis to update this unfortunately unactivated site, the inner drive in me to start up a new post of what happened last night, I've to update not only for my own sake, but also for the remembrance of 28th of March 2009.

In conjunction with Earth Hour, it was a remarkable night to all the KBians too. Although I'm not a Leo member, glad that I'd participate in this spectacular night.
I knew this would be quite a late post, its MEMANG a super duper late post about the IR night. One week ago though, I bet the moments still linger in everybody's mind.

Anyway, the performances were awesome. They put up a really good show on that night - 1990'z, A Mile Away, We-need-a-name, 1 4 7 c Walkers,Timothy Au and Sarah.

hearts melt ;
played Taylor Swift - LOVE STORY

Woooots! *big claps for Timothy & Sarah*

Apart from that, not forgetting our superloved band, We-need-a-name! They even played Situasi by Bunkface! Song of the year of Class 5S and we heart that song :)
We danced our hearts out that night, it's something remarkable and inspiring for anti-social peeps like me :D
Was not only impressed by the grand occasion, honorable guests and loads more unfamiliar faces joined us for the charity night, they looked stunningly beautiful and charming especially the kid that dressed up in tuxedo.

JENG JENG, the night was still young and gotta leave about ten as my dad arrived rather early, surprisingly? We talked and joked even the car and headed home about 11. POOF, and jumped into a hot shower for a refreshing sleep :P

Peektures :)
( Credits to Liz, Chelle and those that contributed pictures in my site. Thanks! )

Liz, Shu and Chelle

a closer view of us *grins*

Hearts you to bits!
*smootchies*

my kaki :D

sue san and karyee

Big eyes vs Small eyes
( I know you're proud of your eyes. ish )

Group picture.
Raxine, Aryl, Chelle, Karyee and Chuixing

Finally I keep my promise and posted this long post. Awww, its short but I'm lacking of inspiration to write these days.



Anyway, Happy Belated April Fool's day people.
I'm late for the wishes but I'm making up for it. See this :D

I wrote this on the April Fools' eve. I thought of those peeps that might be missing me loads, and this simply shows I care & think of you :) *blow kisses*
Don't angry kay if I'm late for the updates x)

Another reasonable point :D

Although my desk was in a big mess, I still make an effort to write a note just to delight your interest for coming back to my site for updates! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*flash lovely grins*

Anyhow, I love to talk more.
I'm pretty long winded sometimes. *flips hair*
& I need to go.
Toodles!

XO

tuning in : Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
current mood : need anti-depression pills?

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid